One of the weekends, I decided to travel down to Singapore to buy myself the exact trumpet mouthpiece that I want. It was a crazy unfamiliar decision, but I am sure that I will get the result- instead of waiting for an online purchase to arrive after three months, or waiting never-endingly for a friend to help buying it for me.
The process of buying the ticket was the most difficult. I was really surprised that the RM120 bus ticket is not available, and the departure times that I want were not offered anymore. I became so upset, the familiar decision that I would made is to cancel off the trip. Inside being so furious about it, I gave it up, just buy the RM180 ticket with the not-so-convenient departure times.
And after that I felt so relieved, because now I know it was confirmed that I WILL definitely go down to my favorite city and get that mouthpiece.
So, with my freshly washed sandals, and my newly repaired Seiko, and a pair of Gucci shades (borrowed) that kept fell off my face, I went to Singapore all alone to buy my mouthpiece. It was really a small but significant step in my life.
Taking the unfamiliar action is risky, uncomfortable, but they definitely give you new results. It’s like a fresh change in life, sometimes exciting.
Apart of that. I am also learning to forgive and forget people's mistakes. Particularly on a person that I know for quite sometime.
Of course there would be certain excluded cases of torn relationships and destroyed trust which we couldn’t save anymore. However in general, if I still have my interest in a relationship with another human being, I can choose to separate between the individual and his wrongdoings. The mistake was in the past, and a person is always bigger than the mistake. Giving up my ego and be generous, and I will receive the same thing too. Instead of giving the cold shoulder, I started to chat as usual. What a relief it felt for me!
I am also now listing down everything that is out of integrity in my life.
Promises that I have not kept, failures of the past that I haven’t cleaned up, stuff like that.
And perhaps, one by one, I’ll attend to them with the unfamiliar approach.
More to come!
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