So now it is the year of 2010.
The closure of 2009 was a blast, but I had this instinctive fear of what might happen in 2010.
And the fear lead to something real.
First, my favorite silver ring was lost.
Then my office computer broke down and I had to reformat everything (in fact I am typing here just after I had it repaired).
And then, this year the dark side of me that was hidden, was revealed.
I felt humiliated, as if I was stark naked in public, and everyone could see me.
And after thinking it through, I realized that this huge tragic event in my life was necessary.
For me to contemplate, and be a more responsible person.