I admit that I still have this lingering effect after my decision of refusing the orchestra management job.
It feels like an ex partner, with a faint anger and dissatisfaction.
But I have to admit that by being that, I am trying to get away from being responsible of it.
Perhaps I am trying to blame someone, something, or the situation itself.
I'm now declaring peace.
Declining the job was totally my decision.
And it doesn't make me anything less than I am.
In fact, somehow or rather, I was indirectly being recognized by the prestigious orchestra-
the moment they wanted to hire me into the team.
And in this small industry, I might bump into them again.
So. Case closed. Not going to look back.
One says, when you cut down a branch, a few shoots will grow.
After a week of the huge decision,
Suddenly my schedule became even tight.
Both orchestras that I am joining are going to have concerts-
one in July and the other in August.
Pieces are tough.
And actually, I am stealing time to type this on a weekend.
Because, my weekends are fully-booked for rehearsals.
Will update soon!