Last weekend, we had a blast at my parent’s house.
All the junks were hidden on the top floor, and the living area was cleared and decorated.
Friends and relatives from different backgrounds and lifestyles came over.
It’s quite interesting to see that each son of the family has their own group of friends.
Including mine, who made a grand entrance in the evening.
People glare and people stare,
But we don’t care.
We had a good time,
Eating, joking, and laughing.
They commute from far away, and it was worth it.
So I thought.
Until the next morning,
Just before I leave the house to return to Damansara,
I had this conversation with mom.
“Why are your friends now like that?
You have to wisely choose your friends,
Because they shape you what you are.
Are you like them?”
“They have been my friends since high school.”
“Ya, but when your friends do bad things,
It’s wrong for you to say- it’s okay, it’s alright.
It doesn’t matter what people say,
But it does matter what God says.
You have to read and learn more about the religion.”
“I have prayed in front of Ka’aba
And we are just what we are.”
“What are you?
Are you a Moslem?
You have to be concerned with
Where God will put you in the end-
Whether you are along with the good Moslems
“That is for God to decide.
“You can’t say that.
It is already stated,
And now is not like the past.
In this modern world there are a lot of methods.
Apparently you did not try hard enough.”
And I left.
Today I went through the internet and basically I googled the keywords like
Gay + Moslem + Surah
My result of findings-
Basically, there quite a sum of surah that mention the condemnation of this being.
There is also one geographical information pertaining to the earthquake disaster that actually happened in the land of the prophet Lut. The writer also mentioned about the tragedy in Pompeii where the victims were being said as to commit in adultery during the event. An interesting conclusion closed the article- “but still people insist on not learning lessons of the past”.
I am a person with an odd orientation.
If I were to take this road towards being a hetero,
I’ll be just spending years of my life trying to be someone else.
I’ll suffer, I’ll get stressed out, lose my hair, become sick,
And might eventually die “an honorable death”-
Because of the fight against my own orientation
Which is deemed as unnatural in this world.
Am I willing to do that?
Apart of this dispute I have;
I really appreciated that my friends
take the effort to come all the way
from Damansara and even Putrajaya.
It was still worth it,
because perhaps it would be the last.
We'll have celebration at my apartment instead, next time.