You must make an adjustment in the way you handle your emotional needs and your conscious will. You can abuse your health if you give in to overwhelming demands on your time and energy.
Your emotions are intense and are often based on willful desire. You are impatient, moody and even given to brooding. Easily hurt, you can become jealous, hold grudges and take revenge.
You often judge others too quickly and feel a need to dominate through subtle means. You will not tolerate opposition to or interference with your goals, but often you will sacrifice a great deal for kindness.
You have executive ability and are resourceful and enterprising. Although abrupt and impulsive, you have self-confidence and the ability to attain success. You usually get what you go after; however, you might find that you have achieved a hollow victory. Since you are so jealous, proud and possessive, this position doesn't promise a harmonious connection with the rest.
You become emotionally intent on completing and enjoying any project you have adopted, and you can seem lacking in sympathy when so absorbed. Your personality is deep, and you have shrewd insight into other people; often you like to probe into deep and unknown fields.
Your ability to observe is unlimited. Your willpower is often latent, but when you use it, it is for the betterment of humanity. A negative use can lead to inhibition and perversion. Your greatest need is to learn to forgive and forget.
You must learn to handle your strong, deep feelings. Since your senses are so important, you should pay attention to them.
You are psychic and intuitive, and you learn by absorption rather than by study. Your memory is retentive; your mentality is reflective, romantic and poetic. You may keep your real thoughts under cover and only express with close friends or relatives.
This shows a duality evincing contradictory qualities; combined with your receptivity to outside influences, it's no wonder that you are often accused of being moody and sensitive. You get hurt easily. Harmonious surroundings are very important to you because you react more from the subconscious than from reason.
You like to be well-informed and often have a great love for music or some sort of artistic talent. With difficult aspects, your sense of reality might be distorted and your mind may vacillate; you may tend to wool-gathering or day-dreaming; you could be pessimistic, melancholy and confused.
Too many difficult aspects can give you a morbid imagination, a persecution complex or other neuroses or phobias. You should guard against self-pity or personal resentment; concentrate on seeing and thinking clearly. Use your many talents and your innate spiritual attitude to combat your potential negativity.
You are magnetic, and idea person and a fast thinker. Restless, ardent and instigating, you may be overwhelming, and your aggression may even drive others away. Because you are outgoing and enthusiastic, you excel in social situations.
Your outlook is cheerful and positive; you package yourself well, and you can be creative and artistic. With difficult aspects, you may be fickle, may dash into an early or hasty establishment, or you may even lack manners. You must develop more understanding for other people's feelings.
Your nature is affectionate, warmhearted, congenial and fun loving, and you don't like to think of the seamy side of life. You enjoy family life but need and expect independence. You may lack ambition to do much with your abilities and talents because everything comes to easily to you.
Your inner strength is based on a good philosophy of life. You operate with great bursts of energy but have little endurance. You often embrace new ideas without thorough investigation beforehand.
Full of life and vigor, you can be a crusader and are quite patriotic. Rhythm, harmony and tempo come naturally to you. Because you are gallant, extravagant and scintillating, your cheerful presence is welcomed at any social gathering.
rush rush
Ah, these few days I've been extremely busy.
I'm stealing these few minutes before taking a shower and go to bed.
Today I went for rehearsal for the whole day from 2pm to 9pm, and after that I rushed to my friend’s studio to do our live band recording and we completed it by midnight. The recording was not bad, we could make full use of it for promotion.
I’m not able to write too much tonight, but I’m posting these photos-
Nice things that I see and snap with my phone while on the run.
The mosque- as I walked back to the office from Friday prayers.
Colonial- while entering KL Pac.
Tea time- while having a break during the youth orchestra rehearsal.
The trumpeters- during rehearsal.
Forty winks- yeah, we were THAT tired.
Silver instrument- while everyone is out having a break.
I'm stealing these few minutes before taking a shower and go to bed.
Today I went for rehearsal for the whole day from 2pm to 9pm, and after that I rushed to my friend’s studio to do our live band recording and we completed it by midnight. The recording was not bad, we could make full use of it for promotion.
I’m not able to write too much tonight, but I’m posting these photos-
Nice things that I see and snap with my phone while on the run.
The mosque- as I walked back to the office from Friday prayers.
Colonial- while entering KL Pac.
Tea time- while having a break during the youth orchestra rehearsal.
The trumpeters- during rehearsal.
Forty winks- yeah, we were THAT tired.
Silver instrument- while everyone is out having a break.
close book and open a new one
Like most loyal readers of this blog would know, on 23rd December 2008, I lost almost all my friends, which I’ve got to be with for years. I’ve done some very huge blunders, and the response was anger, frustration and eventually isolation, by these people who were dear to me.
The cause of it was me having the access to speak up my thoughts, and this ability is actually a tool that could lead to good or bad.
Difficult for me to dig into this issue again, but I will have to deal with it bravely, so that I will finally seal the book of the past even though I would never be in the list of their good books. After all, by me trying not to think about it will always lead me to think about it again. And again. And again.
I feel loneliness, wishing that it all never happened.
And one night dear-dear Z reminded me something.
Subconsciously, I am doing this over and over again to myself,
because there is a hidden pay off that I get from it.
At first I didn’t see it, but when I think hard,
I actually could speculate that by continuously mourning being alone and what not,
I could seek sympathy, and I could get attention.
I am actually dominating the people who listen to me!
All this sadness, loneliness, come from my inside.
I’m the one who is upset. I created it again and again.
Everyone else is fine, and they are happy with their lives.
In fact, if I say that I am all alone, that is so not true.
I’ve got wonderful friends around me.
I kept on dreading to the past, I forgot all about the future.
I need to nurture the existing valuable relationships that I’ve already got.
It’s not fair for me to continuously compare and contrast between the future and the past.
Even one of my nicest friends said,
“We don’t need to remind you all the time that you’re not alone.”
We are humans and there is always that little voice trying to justify and judge, and drag us to negativity and make us upset again. We can just give up that feeling again.
My wise former colleague told me-
"True, this is a good lesson for you to see on how you can improve yourself,
but perhaps this phase is meant to happen. It's a huge shift to move you forward from being stuck at the same recurring situations, bringing you into a new realm and future."
So now I forgive myself for being what I was since before 23rd December 2008.
I forgive the past and I forgive everyone.
One question I asked myself-
If there is a spark of new kinderness between me and the people of my past,
What should I do? Should I feel uncomfortable and pull myself away, remembering the painful yesterday?
I’ve concluded that it should be a new beginning. It’s a new relationship, no more related to the past.
“Let the conflict end within you”
-from the Thailand epic, Queen of Langkasuka
The cause of it was me having the access to speak up my thoughts, and this ability is actually a tool that could lead to good or bad.
Difficult for me to dig into this issue again, but I will have to deal with it bravely, so that I will finally seal the book of the past even though I would never be in the list of their good books. After all, by me trying not to think about it will always lead me to think about it again. And again. And again.
I feel loneliness, wishing that it all never happened.
And one night dear-dear Z reminded me something.
Subconsciously, I am doing this over and over again to myself,
because there is a hidden pay off that I get from it.
At first I didn’t see it, but when I think hard,
I actually could speculate that by continuously mourning being alone and what not,
I could seek sympathy, and I could get attention.
I am actually dominating the people who listen to me!
All this sadness, loneliness, come from my inside.
I’m the one who is upset. I created it again and again.
Everyone else is fine, and they are happy with their lives.
In fact, if I say that I am all alone, that is so not true.
I’ve got wonderful friends around me.
I kept on dreading to the past, I forgot all about the future.
I need to nurture the existing valuable relationships that I’ve already got.
It’s not fair for me to continuously compare and contrast between the future and the past.
Even one of my nicest friends said,
“We don’t need to remind you all the time that you’re not alone.”
We are humans and there is always that little voice trying to justify and judge, and drag us to negativity and make us upset again. We can just give up that feeling again.
My wise former colleague told me-
"True, this is a good lesson for you to see on how you can improve yourself,
but perhaps this phase is meant to happen. It's a huge shift to move you forward from being stuck at the same recurring situations, bringing you into a new realm and future."
So now I forgive myself for being what I was since before 23rd December 2008.
I forgive the past and I forgive everyone.
One question I asked myself-
If there is a spark of new kinderness between me and the people of my past,
What should I do? Should I feel uncomfortable and pull myself away, remembering the painful yesterday?
I’ve concluded that it should be a new beginning. It’s a new relationship, no more related to the past.
“Let the conflict end within you”
-from the Thailand epic, Queen of Langkasuka
post show report
Alas, the Australian Month concert for KL Pac Orchestra is done.
It was quite an effort, especially when I had to travel across four cities to get to KL Pac from my work place on Wednesday nights.
And I was so absent minded today, I travel from Damansara to the gate of KL Pac and realized that my “luggage” today was less heavy – I forgot to bring my trumpet. So all the way I went back home to take it.
Anyway.
This concert was quite different. The arrangements are really lovely, done by the powerful trumpet player of the orchestra, and I would really like to play his arrangements in the future.
The theme- obviously it’s not classical but it wasn’t too pop either- they were no guitarists and the drum kit player wasn’t banging his stuff all the way round. It was just perfect orchestration.
And of course, the Young KL Singers are superb.
And the traditional instrument players sitting in the front,
making the concert unique.
Songs levels are around grade 3 and a half, so they are quite easy for musicians to tackle, however, the deliverance is still powerful and beautiful to listen to at the audience side. Violins are perfect- they sound like one. Woodwinds played their running notes perfectly, and the brass including me, we did a good job.
Also, the artistic director of the whole event, was really entertaining in being the master of ceremony of the whole concert.
I am really happy with the outcome of the concert, and I am proud to be one of the players. I’m also glad that three of my friends who came on the gala night and the closing matinee- they enjoyed the show.
It was quite an effort, especially when I had to travel across four cities to get to KL Pac from my work place on Wednesday nights.
And I was so absent minded today, I travel from Damansara to the gate of KL Pac and realized that my “luggage” today was less heavy – I forgot to bring my trumpet. So all the way I went back home to take it.
Anyway.
This concert was quite different. The arrangements are really lovely, done by the powerful trumpet player of the orchestra, and I would really like to play his arrangements in the future.
The theme- obviously it’s not classical but it wasn’t too pop either- they were no guitarists and the drum kit player wasn’t banging his stuff all the way round. It was just perfect orchestration.
And of course, the Young KL Singers are superb.
And the traditional instrument players sitting in the front,
making the concert unique.
Songs levels are around grade 3 and a half, so they are quite easy for musicians to tackle, however, the deliverance is still powerful and beautiful to listen to at the audience side. Violins are perfect- they sound like one. Woodwinds played their running notes perfectly, and the brass including me, we did a good job.
Also, the artistic director of the whole event, was really entertaining in being the master of ceremony of the whole concert.
I am really happy with the outcome of the concert, and I am proud to be one of the players. I’m also glad that three of my friends who came on the gala night and the closing matinee- they enjoyed the show.
makan makan at japanese buffet
I start by eating cheese cake, strawberry cheese and apple dipped in chocolate for appetizer.
Buttered prawn rings, seafood fried in various ways.
Dipped in mayo.
Salmon, sashimi, raw tuna, all freshly cut.
In fact, the most fresh and juiciest I've ever tasted.
Oyster baked in cheese, escargo in spice sauce.
Second appetizer.
Tiramisu, chocolate moist.
Seafood cream pasta,
Shark fin soup.
They also have cream of mushroom.
More fresh salmon.
Chocolate chip cookie and also century egg.
Hahaha I just take whatever that's nice.
Final dessert, and tummy is already round and full.
Buttered prawn rings, seafood fried in various ways.
Dipped in mayo.
Salmon, sashimi, raw tuna, all freshly cut.
In fact, the most fresh and juiciest I've ever tasted.
Oyster baked in cheese, escargo in spice sauce.
Second appetizer.
Tiramisu, chocolate moist.
Seafood cream pasta,
Shark fin soup.
They also have cream of mushroom.
More fresh salmon.
Chocolate chip cookie and also century egg.
Hahaha I just take whatever that's nice.
Final dessert, and tummy is already round and full.
feelings
This thought went across my mind as I rode my bike to work on the Penchala link in the morning around 7-ish, when the sky was a mixture palette of deep blue and golden yellow. Pretty sight.
I had just happened to read online news about this person. We used to meet at the club for a not-so-blind date, but once he saw him, there and then he said that he needed to meet his friends first and there he went, disappearing in the crowd without ever coming back.
This person is now a famous fashion designer, and every year without fail his name will pop up in the news, with his latest creation. And each moment I read about his victory, I felt jealousy creeping inside me.
True as they say, you always wish that those who reject or leave you will have a miserable life. You wish that you will be more successful and happier than them, or at least when you bump into them- you will act your best to be more superior, wealthier, whatsoever better than them.
This is the strange truth of us. We were okay with our lives, and then when we heard that that ex who had just purchased himself a huge mansion, or went to a great vacation- we’ll start to roll our eyes, or worse, roll into bed feeling depressed.
There will always the mean side of us. But when we get mean, in the end we ourselves will not be happy.
Really, we need to remind ourselves that our life right now-
how happy we are with it is based on how we appreciate it.
Yes, we will always want more of this and that, but along the process of getting more, if we never truly appreciate life the way it is given to us right now, we will never be happy.
So those who earned their victory this year- a completed masterpiece, a recommended entitlement, a new car, a bonus reward or a fabulous vacation trip- congratulations to you and enjoy it. You deserve it.
kl pac sinfonietta - april concert!
Despite the rain which falls almost everyday, members of the orchestra attended the rehearsals for this concert, on the 19th.
The orchestra's concert is embedded into the scheduled event of KL Pac, and this season's theme is "Australia".
All songs are related directly to the continent- folk songs and national anthems.
Song arrangements are either majestic and patriotic, expressive or easy-listening, light and a bit on the modern and non-classical influence.
Personally, I love the pieces, all arranged by two local musicians-
and although they are songs of Australia, but they do have the Asian touch.
I enjoyed playing while listening to them. It's such a privilege.
Concert details:
KL Pac Sinfonietta in the style of Down Under
16-18th April (Thursday-Saturday) at 8:30pm
19th April (Sunday) at 3:00pm
Venue - KL Pac Pentas 1.
Songs including Waltzing Matilda and I Still Call Australia Home.
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